But the mind functions only as well as the nervous system. If you live in fight or flight, suffer from anxiety, insomnia, overwhelm, you won’t be able to access your mind’s potential for clear and creative thinking. You’ll feel stuck and unable to change your external reality. That’s why unwinding the nervous system is central to my work. Once you know how to get calm and centered, you’ll have full access to your creative juices to design a life that suits you. In addition to feeling completely in alignment with your true self. A natural high!
My quest for health and happiness began when I was 13, when I had a major existential crisis. I wondered what the hell I was doing here. Life felt dull and meaningless. Around that time (no coincidence I realized later on) I began suffering from debilitating migraines, heart pain, abdominal pain, indigestion. I went to the doctor a lot and was told repeatedly that everything was “fine”. But I wasn’t. I knew that much.
By the time I was 15, I became a vegetarian, cut out sugar, experimented with cleansing protocols, raw foods, wheatgrass juice, Bach flowers, protein shakes, you name it. Everything helped, but only to a degree. I still felt terribly anxious. At 16 a bout of psycho-analysis helped me understand the “why’s” of some of my angst, but alas, that didn’t bring me inner peace. Fortunately in my early twenties yoga and meditation entered my life and gifted me with my first major breakthrough. In a matter of months my mind cleared, many insights came to me as to what my path was. Someone asked me to teach them yoga and I did. It was a perfect fit and soon I had a full schedule. Yet my health was still up and down, with recurring episodes of abdominal pain, fatigue and anxiety.
I kept exploring various healing paths, worked a lot, exercised too much for my own good, went back to school and got married. Marriage only triggered more anxiety. Finally as I turned 30 I began experiencing extreme fatigue, more frequent migraines, depression and again the constant abdominal pain. I eventually got diagnosed with an auto-immune disorder. This was a wake-up call and a humbling moment for someone who thought she had taken good care of herself. I certainly did the best I could. But one thing I had not done was to be consistent.
My vitality and mental outlook were up and down because my self-care was up and down! *lightbulb moment* While I experienced major breakthroughs on my journey I wasn’t able to sustain them because I was a self-care dilettante. I’d do anything consistently until I got better then drop it. Well, this body/mind, as our main vehicle for living, needs regular care. I’ve learned that lesson, trust me!
In the end, after all I’ve tried, it is my commitment to daily relaxation, mind clearing and centering, that has helped me keep my energy stable, maintain a positive outlook in all situations and ride unpleasant feelings until they pass, because they always do.
I am grateful to have studied with wonderful teachers. After a destined encounter in 1994 with my first yoga teacher, Gordon Sharpe, I graduated as a Hatha Yoga Teacher from the World Yoga Center, became a Thai Massage practitioner (Lotus Palm), and licensed massage therapist (NY). Since the age of 20, I call Paramhansa Yogananda my spiritual teacher. I have delved deeply into his profound teachings as well as the art and science of meditation. I am a certified Ananda Meditation Teacher. Eight years ago I absolutely fell in love with Ayurveda, and graduated from a 2 year-long program at the Kripalu School of Ayurveda. I regularly study with Dr. Lad, founder of the Ayurvedic Institute, Dr. Paul Dugliss from New World Ayurveda and many others.